our home...

i try not to whine but i do. i get frustrated with our little house and get overwhelmed with how full it is and how we don't have much room. we started going to a church in Dickinson recently. on Sunday a lady stood up with your daughter who is a junior in high school. the mom talked about how proud she is of her daughter. the mom stated she has nine children and they just moved here last year. she went on to say that they use to live in SD. they had 10 acres, horses, and a nice home. she then said circumstances lead them to Dickinson and that is where God has them now. she proud of her daughter and how she has adjusted and accepted living somewhere new. she then stated that they live in a three bedroom apartment and do there laundry with the coins.

my heart dropped and my eyes filled with tears. i try not to whine about my home here and how its nothing like our Wisconsin home but i often fail. this move has been hard. harder than i can imagine cause just when i think i get a grip on reality here another reality hits. so my new mission is to change my whining thoughts of this place to thankfulness cause i don't do all my laundry in a coin operated one that i share with others and i do have a deck to sit on and watch my children play outside. its not a small apartment but a home. its not perfect but i'm far from it so it can match me. this is where God has us and I feel blessed to have what we do. family and friends are far but this experience has brought mike and i closer making us rely on each other. it also makes me as a mom know i can do this... be a mom of these two boys when days are long and hard. how i do it is with my heavenly Father beside me encouraging me and tugging on my heart when I need to soften up to see more in my boys and really take time to listen to my husbands heart! i miss the stop by of friends and the drop by of parents. i miss calling my parents and asking them if they can watch the boys for a few hours while i just sit alone at home. i miss a lot of things but through it all I see myself relying more and more on my heavenly Father. Reminding me its not about me or these earthly things. Its about Him and Him alone!

So I"m thankful for this day and hearing my oldest tell my youngest no and say he's not supposed to look at him like that. hmmm... wonder where he's heard that!

thank you Father for this day and the blessing it will bring. let my children see You in me. let me have patience with them and my husband. your daughter, dawn