grandma loving on him in his oh so cute outfit!!
smiling even after the shots. well the next day!
weekends are the best and i'm especially thankful for this weekend! a long one and i convinced mike no work til monday! so who knows what today brings! i'm really hoping to head up to sweet lake. a tan would be great along with catching some bluegills! not sure what mike thinks of this idea but hopefully he will agree!! john is upstairs cooing in his swing! he is so much fun these days!! he is always ready for a smile and someone to tell about his day!! i love it!! i can't wait until he runs to the door screaming mommy!!
things have been a bit harry lately! i started my new old job and with my dear friend passing away things have been crazy. i 'm so used to just working late into the evening and getting my work done but with having john i have to get home to relieve whoever is watching him! mike is also putting in long hours! its kinda frustrating and i feel so guilty at work! i feel like because i'm pumping i should be staying longer but i just can't and i also want to be home with my son! you can pray for me with this struggle!
john got his first shots this week!! he cried and mom cried!! he ended up with a little fever and just wanting to be snuggled which never happens and i actually secretly enjoyed the cuddling cause he doesn't often do it!!
with mike working long nights, Saturdays, and being gone often on weekends I tend to feel like i'm a single mom at times!! its doesn't help that i'm the one that has to feed him all the time or i'm pumping! (mike feels bad but its also just this stage of life and we will get through it) pumping is another whole issue! i haven't been pumping as much so my milk is decreasing and its so frustrating! john is also not coming to my breast as good! this morning he balled cause he was hungry but did not want me only the bottle! i feel like an awful mom!! i know i know i'm not but it just hurts!
i know whine whine whine! ug!! although i whine i'm so thankful for a healthy beautiful boy, food on table, and a roof over our heads! we are blessed in so many ways!! thank you jesus!!
happy 4th of july everyone!!
things have been a bit harry lately! i started my new old job and with my dear friend passing away things have been crazy. i 'm so used to just working late into the evening and getting my work done but with having john i have to get home to relieve whoever is watching him! mike is also putting in long hours! its kinda frustrating and i feel so guilty at work! i feel like because i'm pumping i should be staying longer but i just can't and i also want to be home with my son! you can pray for me with this struggle!
john got his first shots this week!! he cried and mom cried!! he ended up with a little fever and just wanting to be snuggled which never happens and i actually secretly enjoyed the cuddling cause he doesn't often do it!!
with mike working long nights, Saturdays, and being gone often on weekends I tend to feel like i'm a single mom at times!! its doesn't help that i'm the one that has to feed him all the time or i'm pumping! (mike feels bad but its also just this stage of life and we will get through it) pumping is another whole issue! i haven't been pumping as much so my milk is decreasing and its so frustrating! john is also not coming to my breast as good! this morning he balled cause he was hungry but did not want me only the bottle! i feel like an awful mom!! i know i know i'm not but it just hurts!
i know whine whine whine! ug!! although i whine i'm so thankful for a healthy beautiful boy, food on table, and a roof over our heads! we are blessed in so many ways!! thank you jesus!!
happy 4th of july everyone!!
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