can't be this good...

so yah its been awhile. i keep thinking of something i should write and then i'm off to do something else. right now i'm avoiding the clothes that are scattered on my floor that need to be washed.

a little bit of an update on john. the boy crawls everywhere. he also moves between furniture quite well. the hardest thing of late is telling him "no". i love coming home from work and walking into the kitchen and watching my little boy get his little crawl on. he buggies my way and my heart just dies. i grab him into my arms and hold tight because i know at that next moment he is going to be wiggling to get out and get down but on occasion i do get those moments that he just curls up into me and we cuddle for just a second. the hard part at night is telling him no when he wants to topple the tv over or touch the fireplace or take mommies papers from under the table and mess them everywhere. at times the whole night feels like no's. ug but all advice says keep going... he gotta learn. ug this part is hard. when that smile lights his face my brain has to freeze up and tell my heart to not smile and be firm. so hard!!


here are some pics of today. fun with tyler and amber. i'm so glad i have my sister. she is such a good mom and aunt. she is not only my sister but my best friend. i love that she is always there through it all to help me along!! sisters are great!!

today was great. it beautiful and warm out side. both amber and i went for a walk with our boys. as we were walking amber said "did you ever picture this day?" no honestly i didn't. oh i thought i could but not the real thing! i'm so in love with my boy and i know amber feels the same way. walking outside today i realized all i want is this. time with my boy and my family. i'm so excited for years to come... basketball and baseball games, watching little naked babies run through a sprinkler, sledding down a big hill, building forts and snow caves and tunnels, watching them swing a golf club and trying so hard to hit it like daddy, etc. all these moments i will treasure forever. never thought this could be so good!