if he lives...

ug last night was one of those nights... wondering if this child will live past 1. somehow this little round battery got in his mouth. both of us grabbed for it. me screaming and mike grabbing it. both of us looking at each other and thinking close call. not an hour later i see something else go it it and both of us grab again and we found nothing. so who knows what really went down. i think every other night i have this panic attach that he did get something. worst fear is me watching him choke. ug! i know depressing blog but seriously i sometimes wonder if he'll ever live past 1 with me as his mom. ug!