i'm 37 weeks pregnant and wishing i was done. that point of you can't sleep, you pee every hour or more, your hips hurt, your boobs leak, nothing is comfortable. yes so those who lived life with me before when i had john are thinking boy i'm glad she now lives in ND. i'm tired is what i'm trying to say.
to top my weekend off they are short a guy at work which means more weird hours for mike. so saturday was him working 7am to 9pm and today 7am to 3pm but then taking the night shift of 8pm to 3am. so its been a couple of days of just john and i around here and i'm not the most patient pregnant lady with children i've discovered. i really need my daddy breaks and so does john! i'm exhausted come 3 but its rather defeating knowing i still have the whole night to go with john. whats probably makes it really hard is always telling john to be careful of mommy's tummy. he's a little boy who loves to run and love on ya in one swoop. he does good but towards the end of the day he's done at trying. doesn't help also that i can't really just sit and play on the ground with him cause then i can't get back up is what we have discovered!! he's a champ though and i love him so so much!! told mike its a bittersweet last couple of weeks. knowing that it won't be just him and i but another to love. i'm excited to add this new guy but also sad to divide my attention to now two. don't really know how to decribe what i feel but feel like i'm going to lose some part of our relationship and it just makes me sad.
Mike got home today and shared some really really hard news to me. The house won't be ready for us to move in before baby comes and i'm you could say devastated. I can't really put all my thoughts into a simple paragraph but please please pray for me and well our family here! k would love to expond on this but i really don't have the engery or the willingness to! Just please pray! on to better things...
on another note about this week. johnny had his first day of daycare here. he loved every minute of it while mom fretted at home. i'm so so happy for him but also sad cause i didn't do it sooner. i feel like a bad mom not seeing that he needed this. i know he's fine and plenty of children never go to daycare or get interaction but john has been in daycare since he's been 4 months old whether it was with me or a good friend who does daycare he has always been around kids! anyways its done now and he is going one day a week. it also gives me a day to relax which i told mike i don't think i even knew how much i needed. it was great to not do a thing. i will admit i took two naps that day. felt a little guilty but not so much!
anyways please keep us in your prayers. miss you all and love you all so much!
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| John's first day of daycare in North Dakota |
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