sleep, wedding, tears, loves....

i am so so so tired... i don't think anyone could truly understand how tired i am unless you also had kids this weekend at a wonderful wedding... ash and amber!!! its monday and i still am trying to catch up from my lack of sleep on saturday night of about three hours... k on to our great weekend!!

both amber and i took off friday to spend time with family that was arriving that day. we both headed up to the wedding resort around 2. family was already up and we were both so happy to see them. i love our family so much and i have so much fun with them. i wish we had more time with them. anyways on friday we hung out with them and then went to rehearsal and rehearsal dinner. by eight our boys needed their beds and these mom's needed a break. so we headed home. on saturday once again amber and i were headed back up after running around all morning trying to get everything together that we could possibly think of. after picking up cupcakes and putting everything in the car we were headed back up to the wedding resort without our boys. we rushed to get the cupcakes inside, check-in, shower and get hair done! kasey in between all this was also getting her hair done, makeup on, and her dress. SHE WAS STUNNING!! makes me cry thinking of it. k back on track. once hair was done. amber and i raced to get our makeup on and dresses. with minutes to spare amber and i ushered our boys into our cabin. hustling them to get ready also for pictures. our boys looked so nice. nothing like two cute boys running around in the cutest outfits. pictures were alot different this round with two little ones. things had to be quick cause those two boys wanted to run everywhere!! i was so glad it was done. then we had to wait around another couple of hours which meant chasing little boys all around everywhere. well i should say my husband. can i just put a note about my husband... he is so awesome... seriously i couldn't have done it all this weekend with out him. he literally was the babysitter we didn't have. it  was not easy by any means for sure and it didn't help i was kinda grouchy and mean to him. the boys made it down the aisle but only to be refused about going up on the stage. they so wanted to run and play up there. they were shortly escorted out the door by their dads. the wedding was beautiful and perfect. vows were read and before we knew it they were pronounced Mr. and Mrs. Chad Yoder. Loved it all!!  Dinner arrived and once again we were on child duty. This time with hungry cranky tired boys. k so to make the story short we ate and danced the night away... now to really how i felt...

life has changed with having boys. i had high expectations and plans for this weekend and none of them happened. i was disappointed and frustrated to say the least. life with my little boy is just different. i'm learning to accept whats different and sometimes is so hard. i love my little man so much but he often comes first to his own plans and not mine. God sure has funny ways to show us that we are not in control. on sunday i had to apologize to my husband and also learn to give it to God. nothing is in my control. i cried to my husband and to myself. life has changed for the better with john but sometimes i can forget that. now this is not to say i didn't love the wedding and didn't have fun cause it was wonderful and fun!! i danced the night away with my sister and cousins!! can i just say i love family. i love them all so much!!

to kasey... i am so glad you are now in our family. i am so excited for the years to come. you complete chad and make him to be a better person. both mike and i pray are always praying for you. there will be mountains and valleys and always know we are there for you through it all. remember christ is to be that sure foundation and you will make it through it all. i love you both so much!! so excited to have another sister and a completeness to our family!! welcome kas love you!!

on sunday both and mike and i laid low. breakfast with family, packing up, john napped, mike and i crashed. after about two hours it was back to reality. clothes needed washed and the house needed to be cleaned. mike kept john busy and i cleaned and cleaned. around 9 i hopped into bed and went to sleep. morning came all to quickly and both mike and i laid in bed saying we didn't want to work. i even asked mike if he could post a sign saying"closed" he laughed and said i don't think so. so here i am with four kids running around and me wondering if its friday!! better get going just saw john knock down another kid!! love you all!! hopefully pics are coming soon!!